The Autistic Experience

You may have broken my spirit but will not shatter my soul. You have scarred my body and hollowed my hope. Time does not heal everything and somethings never mend. But as I carry this broken part within me I unlock my limitless strength. 

My passion was killed by society and my faith humbled. Love never conquers all and sometimes love is not enough. The one true love I shared was taken from me and we were prohibited from being ourselves. In a sea of people I remember you and as I drown in the sorrows of what these men have put me through I find myself in the deepest part of my abyss. I find comfort in the dark reaches of my mind. As I sink in an endless sea of sorrows I hear your voice, see your smile and feel your warmth. You are an echo of my love and a testament of my worth. My worth that was never defined by others but shaped by the experiences I had. In darkness you always find me and remind me of your touch. That sweet innocence and that endless love.

Scars never heal and only in the pain do I remember what it felt like to be loved. I know not hope but only flashbacks of your loss. I find meaning in my trauma and cherish the bittersweet taste of your love.