The Autistic Experience

Category: The Burning Sun

  • Wonder

    “I wonder what it’s like to be loved, to be held. Wonder what it’s like to be you, your closed off heart.” Wonder is all we have. Unable to understand and be involved in the experience of humanity, I have always learned to grow on the side. I have tried…

  • Coming Out

    “No one with autism is the same and if you have met a person with autism, you have met a single person with autism.” Coming out can be a difficult experience not only when you are queer. It is particularly difficult when you are neurodivergent. You are the same person…

  • The Body Remembers: (sexual trigger warning)

    I was stripped of choices from the beginning of my conception. I did not choose to be born into the world that punishes you for being different. My body was scarred when they took the choice from me. I was circumcised and not asked. I grew in a family that…

  • O’ Doctor O’ My Savior

    It started since childhood but not understood till adulthood. I was always different but never had a name for it. I struggled with blasphemous thoughts. I had to count every step I took, I had to wash my hands dry. My fingers bled as I was compelled to bite them.…

  • Body In Wonderland:

    “I struggle to hold you daily, I suffer from the burden, and I still carry you with hate and shame.” Growing autistic, you don’t just develop a feeling of loneliness but have a disconnect with your reality and body. You somatize your pain and suffering. When all bodies look a…

  • Disabled

    Isolated and misplaced. I was different from my conception, but I was disabled when people tried to force me into the boxes that only their minds can fathom. I have always thought of neurodivergence as a spectrum of light. We are all different and our lights infinite combination of shades.…

  • Caught in a narcissist’s web

    Its so heartbreaking, I have always felt alienated from society. Always unwanted and I have made that my narrative. I have been gaslit by everyone into thinking there is a problem with me, when they are the ones that did not understand me. Surviving the abuse of this narcissistic society…