The Autistic Experience

The stars did not align our fate, and we said goodbye in the fading light of the moon.

In another life I would have held you and showed you that I rather be with no one else but you. Alas, time did not hold space for us, and we said goodbyes. The pain of heartache ripples twice, from the goodbye and from when we accept that we need to move on. You were a bee always meant to fly but accepting that I may never have you for myself was one of life’s difficult realities.

My petals shine from the love you brought, and my flowers bloomed from your care. I am a pot full of flowers and remained destined to be cherished by others. As I close this door in my life, I break myself from the love you gave and from the destiny we shared. I accept that in order to embrace change I have to yield to the cruel tides of time.

I start a new chapter in my life, but I have to close the chapters that got me so far and before I can stop reading, I want to thank you for all the growth and all the words of wisdom. I carry this bitter-sweet feeling and look forward with a sore heart that is ready to heal.